A Gentle Reminder.

There are times when all I can think of is the hurting and the suffering and the pain that I've been through. That really is all my mind becomes capable of focusing on and I take it, the way it is. Though its a lost cause, thinking about all of it and wondering how it is that I ended up here and why, there is a certain sense of vague satisfaction in trying to figure out the key to the puzzle.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

The only problem is that the puzzle has no solution. Or all the solutions I arrive at are solutions that aren't very different from eachother. The only problem is that the solutions I arrive at are not really solutions. They are just another way for me to think about the same old questions that again trigger the continuation of the same old cycle.
I wonder if this is sad or bad or at the very least if this is helping me in some way or the other. All I can say right now is that sometimes floating through my own feelings, drooling over my own flood of thoughts and scaling my own mountain of emotions liberates me in ways I never realised I could be liberated. It doesn't necessarily fix anything but it does, time and again, establish that fact that if not anyone else, I AM here for myself and I am here to stay. A reminder of sorts of the better times that are right around the corner.

Love, peace.