My Pretentiousness.

Sometimes, I try pretending to be completely devoid of all human emotions. Just to see if that helps me become a little more immune to the disappointments I have coming my way.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

I try pretending like I'm completely unscathed by any event that usually would have the potential to put me in a very bad or even sad mood. I try pretending like nothing ever in the whole universe can faze me emotionally or mentally or physically. I try putting up an act that makes me look like I'm all tough on the inside and out. I even try telling myself that there isn't anything that can bring down my positivity level. I keep insisting myself that not matter how close I am with the people I am close with, no matter how much I love the people I love, I'd not get brokenhearted by them, nor would I ever expect anything out of them. I literally try my very best to never ever get hurt by anyone, no matter what they say, what they plot against me and what they do to me. I tell myself I'm strong enough to endure all of that and a lot more. And honestly, it has never gone too well.

As easy as it is to pretend to be all that, the reality makes me succumb to it, every single time. In fact, I've come to realize that the more I pretend to be the things that I'm not, the more severely I get hurt. I've realized I can only be undercover for so long before time digs the real me back out into the real world and renders the whole of my exercise as irrelevant as I am.

Turns out, I am human. And I always will be for as long as I live. And I have to come to peace with that. Humans, naturally are social beings bound by the laws of love, empathy and kindness. And anyone whom we love always has the power and the potential to hurt us. It's the price that we need to pay for the priceless emotion of love. But the best part is that anything that's done for the sole purpose of love, is worth it.

Lots of love, peace.