What I'm Looking For.
As a five year old kid, I remember being adamant. I was the kid that wouldn't walk out of the toy store without getting exactly the toys I wanted. If I were told no, I was ready to create a scene, embarrass my parents and get whatever it is that I had my eyes on. It wasn't too hard, persuading my parents. I, in fact, am the youngest of the two siblings and I had my own charm for getting whatever I wanted.
Hello there, I am the Earthian.
My parents had me covered back then. And then things started changing just a little bit. I grew up, I became ten years old and got uninterested in toys and I became self-conscious enough to not go about bothering my parents to keep getting me stuff that I was going to break anyway. Don't get me wrong, I still was the kid who was making my parents get me stuff, but whatever I wanted became more sensible. I was getting into story books. Lots and lots of them. Ah! just thinking of my first books gives me a lot of reasons to smile. Black Beauty, The Adventures of Tom Sawyer, David Copperfield were a few of my first books and I cherished reading them.
Again, I grew older. My areas of interest when it came to spending my parents' money changed once again. This time, when I was about fifteen years old, it was shoes and clothes I was interested in. That's when it all began, my love for clothing and accessories. Again, it was something my parents didn't mind spending money on. After-all, parents always want their off-springs to feel good and if feeling good happened through the process of looking good, it was worth it, or that's what I think they think anyway.
But then I grew a little bit older. At twenty, my needs have changed once again. But this time, there is not a thing in the world that my parents' money or their good nature can do about it. What I'm looking for has nothing to do with anything materialistic. What I'm looking for has more than just life to it. What I'm looking for asks me to not be selfish about it. What I'm looking for staggers me every time it gives me just glimpses of itself. What I'm looking for humbles me and scares me sometimes. What I'm looking for makes me feel enlightened and elated every time it approaches me. What I'm looking for even comes to me, but it also leaves me almost as soon as it comes to me. What I'm looking for sometimes takes my hand into its own and walks along with me, other times, it leaves me to do the walking alone and makes me think about it. What I'm looking for is one hundred percent pure. What I'm looking for is mine for only as long as I believe in it. The moment I question it, the moment I doubt it, it leaves me, promising to forgive me the moment I am ready to apologize. This is the closest I can come to describing it.
Lot's of love, peace.
Hello there, I am the Earthian.
My parents had me covered back then. And then things started changing just a little bit. I grew up, I became ten years old and got uninterested in toys and I became self-conscious enough to not go about bothering my parents to keep getting me stuff that I was going to break anyway. Don't get me wrong, I still was the kid who was making my parents get me stuff, but whatever I wanted became more sensible. I was getting into story books. Lots and lots of them. Ah! just thinking of my first books gives me a lot of reasons to smile. Black Beauty, The Adventures of Tom Sawyer, David Copperfield were a few of my first books and I cherished reading them.
Again, I grew older. My areas of interest when it came to spending my parents' money changed once again. This time, when I was about fifteen years old, it was shoes and clothes I was interested in. That's when it all began, my love for clothing and accessories. Again, it was something my parents didn't mind spending money on. After-all, parents always want their off-springs to feel good and if feeling good happened through the process of looking good, it was worth it, or that's what I think they think anyway.
But then I grew a little bit older. At twenty, my needs have changed once again. But this time, there is not a thing in the world that my parents' money or their good nature can do about it. What I'm looking for has nothing to do with anything materialistic. What I'm looking for has more than just life to it. What I'm looking for asks me to not be selfish about it. What I'm looking for staggers me every time it gives me just glimpses of itself. What I'm looking for humbles me and scares me sometimes. What I'm looking for makes me feel enlightened and elated every time it approaches me. What I'm looking for even comes to me, but it also leaves me almost as soon as it comes to me. What I'm looking for sometimes takes my hand into its own and walks along with me, other times, it leaves me to do the walking alone and makes me think about it. What I'm looking for is one hundred percent pure. What I'm looking for is mine for only as long as I believe in it. The moment I question it, the moment I doubt it, it leaves me, promising to forgive me the moment I am ready to apologize. This is the closest I can come to describing it.
Lot's of love, peace.
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