What Am I Looking For?

I am very outspoken about my what I don't want in my life. I am also very particular about the choices I don't want to make and I am very careful with how I don't want my life to be.

Hello there, I am the Earthian.

And to those of you who think I've figured my life out completely because of what I just said, well, you're not entirely right. Whilst I do know what I do not want in my life, I have only the smallest of ideas of what I want. I mean, I have the wood and the nails but I don't know entirely what I'm constructing, I have the bricks and the mortar but I don't know entirely what I'm building. And because I am very outspoken about what I don't want, I find myself being in the predicament to answer to people and they always ask the right questions,

The truth is, I have only the faintest of ideas of what I want. I say ideas because I don't have just one. I can never conclude my life's ambitions in a sentence, a couple of them, a paragraph, or even a whole book. Even a bunch of  books wouldn't suffice. It just doesn't feel right to explain what I do want because I want so much and at the same time, weirdly, I want nothing at all. Even this meek attempt at trying to explain to you of what my goals are isn't coming close to doing justice to what I have in my mind. And maybe, I'll never have convincing answers as to what I want in my life. And I am okay with it. I don't expect you to understand it or even try to understand it. Because, sometimes, even I don't understand it. Accepting is the best we can ever do. And I've come to accept them.

Love, peace.

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