My Secrets.

Sometimes I wonder why I do things I don't even want to do. Its like I have a compulsion deep within me that just takes over my mind, body and spirit and just goes on autopilot mode with it. If I try really hard, I think I can even get to watch myself from a third person's perspective and laugh at myself because that's how much control I lose over myself.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

These are not crimes that I do, just mindless activities that provide me with gratification that I don't feel like I've earned. I do end up feeling guilty about these things but then again, to get over that, I do some more mindless activities. Binge watching videos and T.V. shows, going through articles about people and stories I have no concern over and just going from one thing to another to another until I've spent so much time on these activities that I just start getting frustrated with myself. I consider myself a believer though. I have to get better than this, I mean, I can only. There is so much that I want to accomplish that I don't because I choose the easy way out and that needs to change. Something that I'm not a fan of is being vulnerable and sharing a little too much about myself. But I realize this is only going to make me a little bit more accountable as a human being in general. So here I am, talking about parts of my life I don't usually talk about. 

Love, peace.