Apologies.

My easiest instinctive action in life has always been apologizing. Apologize obviously when I'm in the wrong but more so when I'm not in the wrong too. Apologize when nobody's in the wrong too. I apologize the moment I feel like I've someone, even if it is in the most remote ways.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

And sometimes, apologies are my escape. When I just want to be left alone and when I want to not indulge in conversations or other forms of engagements with a certain someone, I apologize my way out of them.  Its just hard to be with people for me and its not getting any easier with each passing day. I try to be reclusive but even that tends to hurt people. Apparently people want me to have fun doing what they're doing so that they could feel happier. My presence apparently is really important to their happiness. And whilst I accept it from the bottom of my heart and while I'm honoured that people consider me so important in their lives, I just don't see it from my end. I'm not calling them fake or their gestures pretentious. I just don't believe in connecting with people momentarily and just walk away as soon as it is all done and delt with. Its not the type of relationship that I seek. Maybe I'm overthinking but you know what, I'm okay with being the way I am. I can't help it anyway. I apologize if I sound insensitive.

Love, peace.