Three Sides.

Sometimes, I just want to melt away, just like ice melts away instantaneously when its brought to temperatures higher than it can handle. That's what I want to do. Because striving to stay put, struggling to last and exist is just way too much to handle, especially when there is this bridge between the person you want to be and the person you are and there is just not enough in you to travel across the bridge.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

No, I'm not suggesting anything fatal. I just wish there wasn't this constant battle amongst the person I was, I am and I am to be. It feels like they all are three very different people and its almost like I'm a mixture of all three and that is making me want to shift my moods so often that I just become blatantly confused with everything I am. You know when you constantly have to question the validity of your existence, thoughts arise, and not all of these thoughts are the pleasantest. Its downright brutal sometimes because it leaves you with a lot of questions that you'll never find the answers to.
But, I guess, its okay to just be with the questions. Trying to answer them has been a lost cause anyway and I think its time to just be whomever I am, whenever I am. I think its okay for me to be just the mixture of all the three, I mean, if that's how I'm meant to be, then there's not a whole lot I can do about it anyway.

Love, peace.