Who am I?(26)

When you give yourself the chance you usually give everyone else, you get to know yourself a little more, in ways that you've actually never known yourself. And this makes you wonder a lot, wonder about who you are as a person and why is it that you're so insignificantly significant. Insignificant to the rest of the world, significant to yourself.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

Its funny how people think they've figured us all out when we ourselves are trying to find out who the hell we are, on an almost daily basis. Maybe this applies only to me, but sometimes with the thoughts that scavenge my brain and the actions I take because of these thoughts are just another way of me finding out that there is still so much left to find out about myself. Its a struggle, every single day, to go through all of what I don't want to go through but I don't have a choice. And I can't complain, because that's going to take me absolutely nowhere and I don't want to go nowhere. I want to go some place, some place that's my kinda safe, some place that's my kinda secure, some place that's just resembles me in every way I want it to resemble me in. Its really tiring, having to fight battles that aren't mine, its really a big struggle to try to fight my way to smile when I really don't have even the least of intentions to smile. Its so painful too, but at the same time, I guess, this is what makes it all interesting, I guess. I know all of this sounds really vague and strange, maybe even silly. Perhaps those are the words that come closest to describing me, not quite the best, but the closest nevertheless.

Love, peace.