It's Not Been Worth It.

I get reminded of how simple everything actually is, at least everything that matters is. They're all very simple and its that simplicity that they carry themselves with that blows me away because I've, for a long time, chased them away because they were so simple.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

I've chased away everything that came my way and chased after everything that ran away from me. It was always that exotic gem that I couldn't have that I wanted. It was always the fruit I couldn't reach I tried reaching for, even though there were several others right by my reach. I've wanted to be the very best, so anything simple and anything that was right up my alley was something that I avoided because I was always told those things that make me comfortable are things that will take away my ability to grow.

I'm not denying that or anything, but maybe, just maybe, we have the wrong ideas indoctrinated within us. Because overtime, I had forgotten what it is that made me happy. I had forgotten what it is that I enjoyed and I had certainly forgotten what it is to be alive. Because trying to achieve these "high standards" came with a huge price tag, and that included giving up on myself. And I didn't know how valuable what I gave up was and that I didn't know how its so not worth it to sacrifice it like that. Now all that's left in me is something that lasts, something that longs for something that can only be described with the word undescribable. Its there, its lingering in my heart trying to settle down but because I've chased it away so many times, maybe its skeptical.

Love, peace.