Scrimmaging.

Some days are just absolutely chaotic. Emotionally chaotic, to be precise. Its just really hard to explain why they are chaotic because any attempt at explaining them would just be an attempt that wouldn't ever even come close to doing any justice as to why they're chaotic.

Hello there, I am the Earthian.

For a lot of reasons they are chaotic, its never really just one thing that makes them chaotic. The thoughts just scrimmage through my big head making me want to go nuts and that's when it hits me that I actually am already nuts and its because of that I get lost into this chaos. Or is it the other way around? See?  I have no clue.

But you know what? Its okay that its chaotic sometimes. Its okay I'm this gigantic mess, granted its torturous at times, but its still okay. Because nobody promised me a life full of happiness and bliss when I first stepped into this world. Nobody took me by my hand and tell me I'm going to have a life full of utter joy and absolute bliss when I opened my eyes for the very first time I did. Nobody gave me their word that I'd live a grand life where I have to worry about nothing. Nobody assured me I'll have an orderly life that would give me nothing but sweet moments that I'll savour and cherish for the rest of my life. In fact, I was never told I'd be given anything. This chaos too is just a mere part of this package I've been given in the name of life. And its okay too, because in a way, this is what makes me want to get things done. Those things I care about. So, I guess it all works out, in a very vague and weird way, but as long as it does, its cool, I guess.

Love, peace.