Betrayal.

I know it's so unfair, life. And I know how it feels, how it feels especially when something unfair happens to you when you asked for no part of it. That's just life's way of telling you "I own you, kid". And I know it feels like the right thing to do to just scream away at everything that comes in our way, and then eventually shut ourselves down to the corner we can find for ourselves.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

Why shut ourselves to the corner? Because it feels fair. Because it feels like a place where we find ourselves being not painless, but numb. And because numbness is the best we can get, because numbness is the only viable option that is in the vicinity of us, because numbness is, in a very vague and weird way, soothing, because that numbness is making the zone safe for us, because that numbness is protecting us from the very light we used to love, because that numbness eats us up alive with our own consent, because that numbness provides us with the answer that we deserve, because that numbness is well, sickeningly numbing, we take it.
Perhaps it'd be better for us to make a more logically sound decision, but this numbness is the only thing that sounds logical. Time keeps passing away and with it, numbness keeps making us, well, more and more numb and this fact for some reason, doesn't feel like the worst thing to have happened to us. I mean, I'd personally much rather take this numbness and run with it than even take a step with something that is going to eventually betray us.

Vague, I know, more explanation needed, I know. Very soon, I promise.

Love, peace.