Peers?

I look back at my own life and all I can find are moments that proved time and time again that I was never someone who fit into any place. I never fit in with my class mates, I never fit in with my school mates, I never fit in with my play mates, I never fit in with my bus mates, I never fit in anywhere at any given time. I just have always been someone who rode his own figurative bike in his own figurative dirt track the way I was meant to.

Hello there, I am the Earthian.

My parents liked comparing me with my peers. People that they thought I could outshine. I never understood that concept for I never really was bothered about who was where and what they were doing in their own worlds. Not that I'm trying to be rudely ignorant but others' lives genuinely has never made me want to make my own life like theirs. I also wasn't someone who was too vocal about his feelings. I doubt if I am even today which is a story for a different day but because I wasn't too vocal about my feelings, people oftentimes assumed I didn't have any. I mean, I wasn't treated badly, its just, I could have had a better treatment because every single time some peer of mine did something I didn't I had to face so much. And no, I have no hard feelings towards my peers, I wish them all really well and a future that they've always dreamt of, but me, what did I do to take the damage? Where do I come in in any of this?

I've oftentimes been told that the world we live is in competitive and if I stomp on my figurative gas pedal, I would do nothing but stay far behind all of my competitors. Maybe they're right. I mean, why else would I be writing about this on here on a random day when I could be out there, facing the cold hard wind everyone else is? Nah, that can't be right. I don't what is right though. I don't even know if  being right is as conclusive as people put it to be. 

Totally random, I agree,

Love, peace.