The Feeling.

If there is one thing I could do with my life it would be to go back and find out the exact moment life got so freakishly complicated. I don't know what it is that I'd do by finding that moment but I sure would love to find it nevertheless.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

Somewhere, somehow it got unnecessarily complicated and it all happened too quickly for me to handle, and the fact that I can't do anything about it makes me go berserk. I'd love to find the person I used to be when times were simpler and I would beg him to stay the same way if I could do that. I clearly remember life being so much simpler and the fact that it is never going to be that way, ever, pinches my heart and suffocates me. From being someone who was confident in his crafts, I became someone with doubts, someone with trust issues. I would choose to be the confidently delusional person I was over this scared idiot with "clarity". It didn't matter to me back then, how I got perceived because there really weren't a lot of doubtful moments. I can't escape it now. So much self consciousness, so much awareness of what's happening around me is haunting me left, right and centre. I wish I could just go back in time, if not that, to just have a glimpse of the simpler moments and relish them one last time. To at least remind myself of that feeling. That pristine feeling.

Love, peace.