A Clean Slate.

Oftentimes I find myself being with someone who says to me that everyday is a brand new day, a day to start fresh by forgiving the past and forgetting the future, a day to make things right, a day to live, a day to love.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

Although it doesn't change a lot for me, getting to hear that gives me some sort of subliminal positivity that gives me hope. I often myself wandering through the field that is my emotions. So much clutter, so much mess that it scares me and makes me think if getting a clean slate is even possible. Some part of me believes that a clean slate is the answer for absolutely no reason. Something about starting fresh, something about being in a brand new journey makes my heart pound in ways I didn't even know it was capable of pounding. Whether it is to run away from my past or to hide away from my future, a fresh start always sounds like the blend of perfection. Sure, there is always the possibility of me messing my clean slate once more but it's not that I'm worried about. It's repeating the same mistakes, getting hurt the same way by the same people I'm worried about and that's where a clean slate comes in.

I know, all of that is just my excuse for my inability to come to peace with the situation I am in but I find myself being okay with not being able to come to peace with it no matter how much another part of me wants to come to peace with it. Things some times are just not fair and there's absolutely nothing that anyone can do it even attempt to fix especially when everything done with the intentions of fixing it seems to only make it worse. So yeah, a clean slate it is.

Love, peace.