Prowess.

Sometimes when I get some free time, and when I say free time I mean time with which I've got absolutely nothing to do, my mind starts to wander about, my mind starts to waver, it starts to jump, it starts to dive, it starts to think and at the end of it all, it just gets extremely tired.

Hello there, I'm the guy who calls himself the Earthian.

And I know it sounds extremely ironic, getting tired because of not having anything to do. I mean, shouldn't it be the other way around? Maybe it's just me. Because everytime I get some free time, I end up wishing I hadn't gotten it in the first place. Maybe it's because I carry this negative mindset, a mindset that believes having free time, having time for ourselves is wrong. There is a part of me that believes having to do nothing is a crime and I'm trying to get away from it. But the more I try, the more I fail because to actually get away from it, I do in fact have to keep myself free. Which just completes the crazy circle. But it's not all guilt either. Sometimes, I do in fact get extremely happy about the fact that I've gotten free time. I just wouldn't know what to do with the free time that I'd go back to thinking which takes me back to the rollercoaster ride of guilt.

If by any chance the message you received out of this article is that I'm trying to paint a sorry image of myself, I have to say you're mistaken. Because truly, the point is, our minds are so freaking powerful. It seriously is freakishly powerful. The thoughts that it can manufacture with perfect and logically sound  explanations is just too powerful and way too beautiful and I recommend for you to experience it. It's us who likes to limit the prowess of our minds. Because honestly, I think a part of us believes that we can't handle having an idle mind. We are just so used to doing something that when we actually give our minds a rest, we become restless. It's going to be hard, not doing anything, it's going to be very hard, but I think it's too beautiful to be ignored. Try it, maybe?

With love, peace.