Constant Fleeing.

He always fled. Always, in any given situation, he would flee the moment his emotions start to escape his body in the form of gestures. He fled, because a part of him didn't want anyone to know he has feelings and emotions, he fled because he believed his emotions would not be understood the way it was meant to be understood, he fled because he was scared people might start misunderstanding him and figure him out to be a person he isn't truly.

Every single time, I say.

He fled because he didn't know how to receive emotions either. I guess, it's understandable for someone to want to flee when they were stuck in a bad predicament. But this guy, he fled every time he was in a good one. He just couldn't take good words, good gestures, kind actions and anything else that was even remotely positive. He would run away from these people. I mean, he wasn't necessarily scared of them, he just believed he doesn't deserve anything of that sort. Maybe lack of self esteem, maybe lack of exposure to these gestures, but whatever maybe the reason, he fled. He doesn't even think twice.
He would also be dying to show his gratitude but for some strange reason, he just couldn't do it. He would want to smile back at people who smiled at him, he would want to treat people well, he would want to be someone who didn't flee but he would only keep wanting it. He just couldn't actually ever do it.

His eyes, his face and everything about him indicated he was dying to open up to someone, establish a proper human contact but some how, he could never do it. I  guess constant fleeing does that to you. He was harmless though, I might even say innocent.

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