Little Wonderings.

I sometimes wonder, exactly at what point did I become the person I am today. I wonder about this because I for sure know, for a fact, that I am certainly not that person I was ten years ago. I'm not the person I was five years ago, I'm not the person I was four years ago, heck, I'm not even the person I was one year ago.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

And I'm struggling to find out when all of this happened. My memory, which is otherwise pretty sharp and accurate (or at least sharp and accurate enough), becomes extremely bleak when I start thinking about this particular thing, this thing about myself.
And something doesn't feel right. It doesn't match, you know, it feels like some pieces are missing. I mean, it's not like I'm not okay with the person I am today and it's not like I wasn't okay with the person I was then, but something just doesn't fit.

Maybe it doesn't need to fit. I mean, no matter what, things are the way they are and there really isn't a whole lot that I can do about it. Time does that to you I guess, bring a lot of unannounced changes and carry you in ways you never thought or expected it to carry you. As much as I'd like to know when and where it all exactly happened, there really isn't much I can do about any of this but acknowledge it and move on. And yeah, cherish it too, for whatever it's worth.

With love, peace.