Believe.

Sometimes I wonder if I could ever feel the overwhelming positivity that I have always wanted to feel, that I have always wanted to experience. That positivity that just whisks away every single last thought that puts me down every single time I allow it to. That positivity that can numb out every receptor in my body that is inclined towards negative thoughts, maybe even convert them into believing in positivity.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

The more I wonder about this, the more time I spend figuring out answers to questions I conjured, the more time I spend making up my own answers to all of these questions, the more time I spend thinking about this, I've come to understand, the farther away I get from what I'm looking to establish in my life; overwhelmingly exuberant positivity that just sinks every pint of negativity.
I need to believe. Before I do anything else, I need to believe in whatever it is that I want and that's where it all starts. That's where it ends too, is what I've come to understand, but that's damn sure where it all starts. Positivity isn't a solution, positivity isn't an action, positivity isn't an attribute. Its a way of life is what it is. And the only way to live such a life is by believing that it really is a way life and, taking it up a notch, by believing that I already am living such a life and then try to fix my story into that narrative that I'm seeking to attain. Believe.

Love, peace.