Suggestions.

The hustle, the fight, the grind, the effort, the pain, the agony, the shame and the time, none of this is worth it, if you're doing something for the wrong reasons. And I'm not the one to say what the wrong reasons are. You know them better than I do and you know that as well. I can only suggest.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

All I'm trying to tell you is that there is no reward that'll ever do justice to whatever you go through just so you can finally attain something that you really don't care about. If something doesn't make you feel anything, that something is probably isn't going to be for you, no matter how much it is valued by everyone else around you. If it doesn't make sense to you even when you've tried your hardest to make it sensible to you, odds are, it won't ever make sense to you and ergo, its not for you. If it doesn't motivate you from the inside just by thinking about it, its probably not for you for if it were, it would set fire in your heart everytime you think about it. If it tells you you can do it later or if it makes you feel like you already deserve that something just because you gave it your most basic and effortless try, its not for you, needless to say I presume. If it doesn't make you do something about it all on its own, at the smallest levels, its probably not for you. Everything that means something to you will let you know why it means something to you. And you'll be drawn by it, towards it. It'll finally all make sense. If it doesn't, its not for you. Ever.

Love, peace.