Who Am I? (29)

I often get asked how it is that I decide if I am going to attempt doing a task that I've been assigned with. And assuming that I have to do that task with zero room for me to slip away from it, I approach it in a way that I end up doing the minimal work that I need to do in order for me to achieve a result that's just good enough. Not something extravagant, not something that is wholehearted, just something that is barely good enough; something that can't be rejected.

Hello there, I am the Earthian.

But how do I decide how much of my time and effort I am going to invest in a certain activity? Well, if it makes me wake up from my bed and gets me passionate about it and excited about it, I'll dive into it without ever looking back at it or regretting it, even if I am not so good at it. If the task given to me makes me feel like a sloth who just have to get it done for me to get through a certain temporary obstacle, well that's indeed what I do, even if I am excellent at it. I just wouldn't give it enough of myself. Partly because I feel I deserve better than that and partly because I feel like the task itself deserves someone better than me. Its a relationship that can't be described in any other way or form because this is exactly what it is. People often mistake this for an attitude problem and tell me that maybe its me who has to open his mind up a little and broaden my horizons. Maybe, but don't we all have our preferences? I'd say its just a matter of preference. What I like as a hobby is something I only like as a hobby. And just because I like it as a hobby, it doesn't mean I have to be inclined to accept it as my profession. It is what it is.

Love, peace.