Wishes.

You know what's a bad idea? Hanging by a lose string. You know what's worse? Letting someone else control that string. Because then, just about nothing is in your hands. You wake up every morning because you have to fit yourself into someone else's schedule. You skip your breakfast, maybe even your lunch, why? Because someone else needs your time more than you do. You give up on what you think you deserve, why? Because you believe what that someone says about you; that you aren't just ready for bigger and better things, not just yet. At least, not for whatever "bigger" and "better" means to them.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

Something about someone else's validation is so satiating and something about it feels like they're worthy enough to spend our time chasing. I know we respect certain people and I get that they've done work that is indeed a huge deal. I get that you respect them and respond to their every comment and call and be in their good books. I respect that too, but I'm struggling to keep up with you when you chase after them even whilst they treat you terribly. I struggle some more when you start believing in what they think of you and when you start treating yourself poorly. It fazes me and hurts me to think that you're willing to settle for what they think you deserve.

Wish I could put it in a way you'd understand. Because I love you so much. I wish you the best too.

Love, peace.