Who am I? (9)

I know I some times talk like I'm a hundred and fifty years old, always sharing "insights", trying hard to make it as a writer but there is a big reason for that. You see, there are only so many opportunities that life is going to give you. After that, it'll be done with you.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

And I realized, that I have been wasting so many of my opportunities that life had given to me. There were some I had to lose, there were some I couldn't do anything but watch them fly by me but most of the opportunities that I had let slip of my hands, were opportunities that I had voluntarily given up.
You know, when you are a wandering spirit and are kind of going anywhere where life takes, you, you don't necessarily make conscious decisions. Sure, you won't be unconscious while making those decisions, but you won't also be on the right minds. It's what I like to call being consciously unconscious. Kind of like how an addiction to something, works. You are aware of the issues that can get caused by the addiction but are still going to do it, without ever consciously deciding to do it.

I realized I could have done so many things in my life, with my life, and instead I chose to be a weakling who couldn't get people to mingle with. I chose defend my weaknesses, there by toughening them, I know, ironic. I chose to be a sad loner instead of enjoying the actual freedom one gets to enjoy when they have their own company. I chose to sell myself short and desperately try and make friends. And still, life was giving me chances to turn my own life around and it kept telling me what my true passion is and why I should embrace what I have, love what I have, instead of doing everything else that I was doing.

And the result of that, is this blog, which I'm very happy about.

Lots of love, peace.