Lonely?

A lot of times in my life, I feel like I don't belong in this world. I feel so, not because I think I'm superior or anything on that line, but because I feel like I'm vague.

Hello all, The Earthian here.

So, today I'm going to share a part of my life. When I was in my junior high school, I got into the big ocean of internet and social media. It was around the time everyone else got into it and it was seemingly very fresh and joyous to have it. Everyday, I was putting in more time on it, than what I had put in, the previous day. Time really flew when I did what I did and I never had any regrets of any sorts. I did what everyone else did, but without a purpose. I did what I did without a reason. No cause to back my actions up. Just plain old actions.

As I started to think about it, I realized I was using social media and the internet as an escape from reality. You see, I was never the famous guy or the popular guy. I was a guy with the most minimal number of friends and I was the guy who was terribly scared of what impact my words might have on the world or people. So, obviously I started using social media and started pretending to like the stuff everyone else liked. I became "friends" with people and it went on for quite a while.

It was when I reached Senior high I realized how miserable I was. Because, after I completed my junior high, I had to switch schools. I went to a different place and this is where I felt completely deserted. So what did I do? Started using social media even more. Again, faking opinions and making all the wrong choices.

Fast forward a year and a half, I now don't have any kind of social media whatsoever.  My point? Well, its just that I learnt that faking is not my cup of tea. It's apparently not as enjoyable as it sounds. It never really achieves something, anything. Did I get more friends? Nah huh. I was able to cut short and find my real friends though. The ones who really care about me. I know the list is small, but I'm happy and have come to peace with who I am.

A great man once said, "Everyone is going to hurt you, no matter what. You just have to find the ones worth suffering for".

Wish you a great day, peace.