Overwhelmed.

Anything new in life can be overwhelming. And I am overwhelmed today. I got a new job and I started today and everything went well, but something about giving up my freedom doesn't sit well with me. And I understand, it's a necessary part of life, sacrifices. Sometimes you sacrifice your time in exchange for money, sometimes you sacrifice your money in exchange for time. And it oddly seems like I've sacrificed my time for money and opportunities to learn and grow, but something about losing the vast amounts of free time that I've had for so long feels like there's now emptiness in me. Emptiness that will only continue to get more empty and I hope all that changes, I'm almost certain it will change too, but God, I hope. I hope I make something out of myself that doesn't require me to sacrifice one for another, and make myself opportunities to be efficient at both.

Love, peace.