Doing It.

The most difficult aspect for me, as I have found out about myself, is that it is hard for me to get motivated especially when there isn't a proper need for me to be motivated. For as long as I have the necessities covered, for as long as there is someone to vouch for me that they have and will continue to have my back for now and the foreseeable future, there just isn't enough for me to get motivated naturally. I think that is because of the risk factor or the lack of risk factor in everything I do. A part of me needs to understand and realize that the time I now have in my hands is more valuable than anything else I could do for myself. It is so valuable and worthy and I have to start capitalizing on it. There isn't a choice here, I have to make use of the time I have got in my life because I will run out of it, and it's not like I don't have ambitions, I am a very ambitious person, perhaps I am lacking the motivation and I am running out of ideas to do something about them. But that's a sorry excuse for my lack of attempts, it is easily embarrassing and I have to do something about it. I have to do something about it NOW.

Love, peace.