My Demons.

Today was particularly hard because not only was I screwing up badly, my family joined as well. I don't like blaming anyone but no matter what your goal is, having a good environment, an environment that is secure from all outside interference and negativity is of paramount importance and today my environmental was utterly spoiled. And I went down a spiral, something from which I didn't climb back up at all until just a few hours ago and I'm drained. I'm drained physically, mentally, emotionally, psychologically and in every other possible way. Sometimes, I am not going to lie or exaggerate, just sometimes, I lose my will to live. I barely even exist at times, but the innate desire in me to make something of myself, to never give up, to fight back until I'm torn to shreds keeps me going. It's not as enjoyable as it sounds heroic. It's constant work and it's sometimes even a lot of pain. But that's how life is, at least for me.

Love, peace.

An Earthian.