Petty.

 Sometimes, I am incredibly petty. Not because I want to be or because that's who I am as a person, but because sometimes, my mind gets attached to things that absolutely don't deserve any type of attachment. And I associate that to the truth that I am a hopeless romantic with absolutely wild and ambitious thoughts. I forget that there is a real element to things at times and that I should perhaps not be so dreamy in life all the time. I become cheap, petty and absolutely unbearable and I do get to my senses, but it takes  a while. It's something I am working on. To not be so petty and cheap in life at times, to be a little more generous in my thoughts and in my actions, to be a bit more openminded and kind to people and where they come from. I'm certain that it's going to take time for me to become a better person in this aspect but I am certain that the time I spend on this is time that will be worthwhile. I have to be kinder to myself too, that's how I will learn from my mistakes. People over things, a balance between reality and dreams, a clarity when it comes to being reckless and an acceptance when it comes to my own mistake. I am not perfect and I know for a fact that I won't ever be but that's no excuse for never learning from my own mistakes. And this is a mistake that I have been trying to learn from for a while, I don't like being petty. It makes me feel so guilty and silly deep inside. I forget that I am so blessed in life at times and that causes me to forget the person I want to be. I hope I get better.