Rockbed.

There's something peculiar about this heart of ours. Or maybe just mine. It knows it will get hurt if it does a certain activity but it still goes out and does it. The pain it can handle is sometimes too much for its own good. It falls down deep inside of its own pit, hoping to someday find hidden diamonds and treasures only to later realize all its been doing is finding a way to reach the rockbed. 

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

The damage can't be controlled to. Its power is unparalleled and its endurance when its seeking what is seeking illogically high. And when it doesn't pay off, it doesn't really realize it for a hot second but when it does realize it, it gets brutally hurt. Ut gets hurt so deeply and badly that it struggles to even understand why it undertook so much pain when it subliminally knew it would eventually end up getting hurt. You know, I try hard, really hard to not go down that path of self destruction. You know when you don't really matter to someone as much as they do to you, there really isn't a whole lot that you can do about it. And as easy as it is to just say that its best to just walk away with our heads held high, its sometimes so much harder done than said. And I really wish I hadn't talked to them and get acquainted with them in the first place. If you're a joke to them once, odds are, you'll always be one. And you know it. And you also know that you deserve better. You really do.

Love, peace.