Who Am I? (27)

If you're someone like me, you'll know that overthinking is not something you can help. It is a part of you that, whether you're proud of it or not, you can't live without. From little things like wondering if you're a good person to big choices in life, everything has to be overthought.

Hello there, I am the Earthian.

Sometimes I have sleepless nights, nights that not only keep my awake but drain me and keep me awake at the same time. My tired and desperate mind would often find itself being not satiated with the answers that it does have and it wouldn't have the energy to find more answers. The silence of night gets electric and I often find myself wanting to cry in the midst of the night, loudly. I wouldn't be able to, that's a different story but I nevertheless would want to cry. But its not always negative. Sometimes its just wild curiosity. Curiosity about life in general. Curiosity about where I am headed, if I'm doing justice for myself, if I am taking care of myself the way I promised to my younger self  I oftentimes wonder if life has to be as scary as people make it sound like? I wonder what it would be like to get rid of all the strings attached to my name in the name of responsibilities, I wonder what it would be like to get lost voluntarily in a lonely island where nobody can trace me. I wonder what freedom tastes like and I wonder if its any less powerful than it is in my head.

Love, peace,

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