Lack Of Self-Esteem.

For the longest time in my life, I've struggled with being somewhere inbetween the person I've wanted to be and the person I never wanted to be. The difference was always that fact that I didn't have it in me to say "no" to people when I didn't want to do something with them, and say "yes" to those I did actually want to do something with. I just couldn't do it.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

Not that I wasn't courageous or that I was scared. If it was anything, I'd call it lack of self worth. I've always underestimated my own worth and value. I'd keep selling myself short and I'd keep putting myself into situations where people would take me for granted. And for the longest periods, I was okay with it. I even entertained it. I just couldn't see myself being champion I've wanted to be. I had no self esteem and I would just allow over me because that's what I was capable of, or so I thought. I would be lying if I said I was proud of myself too. I had no sense of dignity or pride whatsoever. I still struggle with these issues in life but I understand now that these are issues. There was a period when I didn't even know they were issues. I just blindly believed that some things just aren't for me. And boy did it eat me up alive.

Love, peace.