A Tough Choice.

"I wonder if I should ask for help", she pondered. There was so much inside of her that was eating her up from the inside but little did she know that they would or could come to the stage they're at right now.

And what started off as her brand new discovery, what started off as something that she could turn to every time she was in some sort of a pain, became the source of all of her pains. What was once her best friend became her worst enemy and what was once her sweetest dream became her scariest nightmare and now, it has come to the point where she could only wonder if she should ask for help. Because she realized these things that she turned to were no longer fixes. Maybe they never were fixes in the first place. The best they could possibly have been, she concluded, are sources that pave a way to escape, an escape from reality. And escapes whilst for the shortest bursts of times seemed like a comfortable place where she could just momentarily forget every person and event that bogged her or brought her down, were truly the real issues, she summed up. For she used these escapes to run away from what could have been fixed in simple and uncomplicated methods. And she did it so often that now its those escapes that she's seeking an escape from. Only this time, there aren't any escapes. And so its either the hard way of breaking everything that she built in the name of a safe haven or living with constant fears of her escape haunting her. Tough choice to make, isn't it?