Ups, Downs and In-betweens.

Sometimes it's a battle of will. Do I have it in me to be that better person that I want to be, that I claim I can be if only I had the discipline to stick to my own advise? It's a question often asked, seldom answered, yet never forgotten for the wanting and yearning inside of me to be better never dies out. Neither does it ever fade away.

Hello there, I'm 'the Earthian'. In fairness, there are billions and billions of us but I like to call myself that, just to reinforce where my loyalties lie.

Some days I just don't feel motivated, some days I don't feel the need to be better, some days I don't have the energy and some days some other excuses pop up. How badly do I want is the only question that would remain at the end of it all, after having said and done everything. Do I have enough in me to push through or have I just been kidding myself?

Truth is though, it always is a rollercoaster ride with ups and downs, sometimes more ups and sometimes more downs and it's almost never really certain. While I want to be better, I also want to remember to forgive myself. Beating myself up for my past is not going to let me move forward, it's only going to ruin my future as well.

Love, peace.