Feeling Good.

A part of me starts feeling guilty the moment I do myself favours, the moment I don't engage or indulge in activities that are not deemed productive, the moment my mind starts wavering about my leisure time and the choices I've made when I've been free. It is not a reflex, but a necessary station in mind's train of thoughts. My mind, being the train that it is, will not leave this station I refer to as "Guilt" out of the route.

Hello there, I'm 'the Earthian'. 

I know this might ring a bell in some of your minds too, maybe you do exactly the same thing, or maybe it is something you never do but have been curious about how it feels. The feeling is simple, it's basically emptiness and my mind enforcing the fact that I'm being completely empty. And my mind cannot stop, even if it tries the hardest to stop, having this negative feeling associated with it. Is it bad? I think so, if you're constantly feeling like you're wasting your time, it is indeed bad. But if you're only feeling that way because you've been told to feel that way by your peers, by your "superiors" and by people who claim to know all there is to know about life, you're thrusting yourself into a realm of pain and sadness. There are always ways to improve without having to feel bad about yourself. In fact, the moment you start feeling good about yourself, you'll start feeling better and you'll make progress. Much faster progress. 

Love, peace.