Who am I? (11)

In life, we are always told to make a lot of friends, to be as social as possible, to just be connected as much as possible. It may have worked for a lot of people but it clearly hasn't worked for me. I do not know what other people's defintions are for friendship. But I certainly have learnt to define what it means for me.

Hello again, I'm the Earthian.

Unlike how friendship is an addition process for most people, it is an elimination and a screening process for me which makes most people fall under the category of "acquaintance". To get to the point where I can call the other a friend takes a lot of time, at least for me.
When I was younger, I assumed pretty much everyone I got along with, even the tiniest bit, was my friend. As I grew up, I started realizing who those people actually were and they, most of them, were anything but friends. And that's when I realized I had to start eliminating people and also start creating a screening process which prevented me from making the same mistakes over and over again. I grew up in a situation where I was told that it is weird to be all by yourself, that it is not normal for someone to be all by themselves and that it is completely frowned upon. And evidently they all got together in groups, some trying to act "cool", while others trying not to show off their insecurities.
I too tried all of that, do not get me wrong, but soon realized it was not worth it. Nothing I did was actually worth it.

If there is anyone out there who is desperate to find friends, my only words to you is that do not let your situations get the best you. There is nothing wrong in being by yourself, spending time with yourself, trying to figure out what and whom you want in your life. Carry yourself with confidence!

Lots of love, peace!