More Disappointments.

 Sometimes I feel like an absolute pile of garbage. Today is one of those days. I started the day supremely well and I did drifted into a world of nonsense and never really recovered from it. But the thing is I know I can do so much better. I have been doing things that I am proud of but it's the negativity of how I spent my time today that really stays with me at the end of the day. There is nothing I can do about it and I am certain me being ruthlessly hurtful against myself is not going to be the solution even though that feels fair. Something has to change. Not that things are not changing but something has to change at a faster pace and it is only up to one person to make it happen. It is up to me and me alone. I will do it. 

Love, peace.