Being Intentional

One of the best things about my life is that I get to evaluate it and get to be as critical about it as any person will be. And the reality is that I am now here near the person I would like to be. I see myself preaching and talking about things and I do try to keep up with it, I try really hard, but sometimes I fail miserably. 

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

And it hurts me so badly that I fail so badly. It's like I'm punching myself right in the temple everytime I break or misalign from my words, not because I am some sort of a saint who always keeps up with his words but because I know I can be better, much better than I turn out to be sometimes. And one reason that I've noticed for this misalignment is that I sometimes tend to go into autothrottle mode where I just sort of let my words lose. It is very hard to recoupe my attitude once it is already down the drain. I realize that I have to be intentional about everything I do in order for me to have some control of myself. And that's the hard part, being intentional about everything I do, things I like doing and those that I don't quite enjoy doing. But it is all a part of life and that's all I can say about it now.

Love, peace.