"Sheep".

It's not a conspiracy theory everytime I fail. It's not someone's personal vendetta against me everytime I fall down. It's not someone else's fault that I have setbacks in my life. It's not other people's words that orient my life in a direction I don't want it to be in.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

It's not them as long as I have my own power to decide what's best for me. You see, I used to be the person who could barely decide what I wanted for dinner when I went out with my friends.
I couldn't decide what clothes I wanted to wear, what teams I wanted to support, what shows I wanted to watch, which groups I wanted to hang out with, what topics I wanted to talk about, what kind of people I wanted to look up to, what stories I wanted to share, what jokes I wanted to crack and so much more.I couldn't even decide the spot in my bed that I liked the most to sleep in.

Some of these, I didn't know what I wanted because I was never exposed to them whilst the others, I did know what I wanted but was too embarrassed to talk about my preferences. I didn't want to be the black sheep in a herd of white ones, neither did I want to be a white sheep in a herd of black ones.
It's only later that I came to understand that the kind of sheep I was, was and is irrelevant.

Lots of love, peace.