Who am I? (8)

Have you ever been that person who just is too scared to be happy? I know I have. A small part of me always used to make me feel miserable. Like, I tell myself that certain things just aren't for me. I know, it sounds just like inferiority complex, and it is too, to quite a big extent. But to get over it, was such a blissful thing.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

A lot of the times, it is us who is throwing problems at our own paths. Like for instance, my thing to keep myself miserable, was all in my head. I always felt like I don't deserve to get whatever good thing that I did receive. And now I wonder why I was the way I was. Because it wasn't like I grew up poor or anything. In fact, I can honestly say that my parents gave me a blessed life. I got everything I need and then some. But even then, a small part of me was driving me crazy, by getting guilty for absolutely no reason at all. Yes, I was awkward, yes, I was clumsy, but it's still no reason to feel bad about me for no reason. Matter of fact, I'm still awkward and I'm still clumsy but I've gotten to like that part about myself.
It's funny because we, as humans, always look for approval from everyone. We seek everyone's opinion about something and we try our very best to reach those "levels". But in the end, we always end up failing because we never consider the one person's opinion that we do need. What we want always gets in the way of what we need.
I think as people, it's mandatory for us to stand in front of the mirror, talk to ourselves, smile and be the best version of ourselves. We need to seek our own approval and appreciate our own qualities for there aren't many that will do that for us.

I just thought I'd share this part of my life today.

Lots of love, peace.