I'm Tired.

I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of being unmotivated in life. I'm tired of being negative about me and everything around me. I'm tired of looking at myself in the mirror with nothing but pity and hatred. I'm tired of wanting to be someone else I'm not.

Hello there, I'm the Earthian.

Waking up every single day to a lousy, with sheer negativity is killing me from the inside. And it's not like my habits are making me any better. I want to be a better person and I don't know where to start. I want to do myself some good. I want not hate every second I live. Sure, I have flaws, but I want to stop focusing on them completely. Especially my physical flaws. I do have a few good traits in me that maybe I should be proud of. I definitely should be proud of them. It's not worth it; to live life in the fear of disappointing myself, or just to live life in constant fear of failures or anything for that matter. It just isn't worth it to live in fear, period. And no, there isn't a guardian angel who's going to come and safe my life and just everything about it. And the sooner I make peace with that, the better it will be for me.

But sometimes, it hurts. It hurts to live only half the life I'm destined to. It hurts and the pain brings me down. Maybe that's where I should start; at the point of my pains. Maybe that'll help.
Will let you know anyway, lots of love, peace.